I have mixed feelings on what to do. We are at such an easy point with the girls right now, and I would loose some of the freedoms i have recently gained w/ their ages etc. it would be so nice not going back to sleepless nights and feeling trapped not having a sitter i would trust with a young baby, Dh and i would not get out alone and i know it would affect our relationship. But I hate to quit trying. I hate to think this stupid mirena won. I hate not knowing why we are having issues. I feel defective and want a resolution, right now i blame the mirena but i have no idea if thats accurate or not. And blaming the mirena, really upsets me that somethingI chose to do affected my body like that. I could be totally wrong and i have to spend several hundred dollars to find out the truth.
And I really dont know how dh will react when i talk to him about it after my ob appt on wed. But if he wants to wait another year to get snipped, I need answers. I cant do this to myself for another year. There needs to be some compromise in there. I am going to suggest to him sept... To get snipped. But dont think its going to go over well. I think it makes him nervous:/ idk, i wish there was an easy answer :(
I hate giving up even though I am not 100% sure a 3rd is the best option and i hate feeling like my body is defective. My body, my heart and my head just won't align together :(
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